I thrive in a city where there is an inverse relationship between croissants consumed and weight gained...I thrive in a city where there is an inverse relationship between croissants consumed and weight gained...(I composed this short bit of an entry on Tuesday, December 15, but never published it. Now on 12/31 I’m putting it in here).
Everywhere I turn, something is indicating that my departure is approaching.
I feel so many emotions about this fact. I think one reason for my ambivalence is that things just started to become really stable, and now they’re changing again.
Also, I’m having a hard time trying to figure people out (the eternal struggle, isn’t it?). Selfishness is everywhere, and I’m wondering if this is a defining feature of people or if it’s just a consequence of the age I’m at. Everyone is acting in their own interest, and at times it just makes me think that trusting people is just worth it. Or, not trusting people, but having faith in people.
I’ve become a lot more independent while abroad…but I think I need to clarify and say “functionally independent” and not so much “emotionally independent.” I mean, I still look to people for guidance and reassurance and pleasure, of course. And maybe if I could stay a whole year I would gain some more emotional independence.
Urban Green